Maximirobbes wrote:Thanks for composing and giving your comments and everything. You are a huge inspiration to me and I barely know anything about you.
Maximirobbes wrote:I wish I could continue to write music and perhaps record. However, today was my last piano lesson I will ever have. I quit piano for real today because the last two years has been really depressing. The more depressed I am, the less I want to do things I know I love. That's why I'm here at FC, because somehow I knew it would be a blast. I find it quite funny, almost creepy how much I have in common with the few people I have met so far. (ken, marjo, a couple others)
I guess I used to be in a much worse situation, half a year ago at the beginning of my sophomore year I started getting really angry and rebellious about everything in life and stopped practicing piano regularly, even though I had been at it for 6-7 years. It took me until now to confess how much I was hating lessons. I have dropped many things I love in life: playing piano, giving a crap about band, speedcubing, chess, programming, hacky sacking, making games, reading, school, even my beloved religion in hopes of finding out who I really am.
To this day I have no idea what I want to do in life, heck I don't even know what makes me happy anymore, it's been so long since I've been happy. I haven't contemplated suicide because I still feel like I am a powerful person, and also because I knew people would forget me if I died. (as ironic as that sounds) I am very well respected and popular at school, everyone has confidence that I can do something great in the world except myself.
So that's why I am here. There is nothing more fun in the whole world, not a trip to Disneyland, skydiving, hanging out with my best friends, than sitting down and playing FC while getting to know this small yet sweet community. I hope you continue to share about your life out loud, it will help you understand things. You know, that's one thing they tell you in school that's actually not bull.
music should come from within.
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